Yes, I was rounding up.

How does it feel to lose that position so abruptly,

and so publicly?

Um, horrible. It feels horrible.

I think I felt as I would feel

if I were being strangled to death by somebody I trusted.

Yes, er, the press have been unkind to you over

much of your recent career, haven't they?

Well, when you're a high-profile politician,

you expect to be in the public gaze. Um, I would say that there's a...

there's a certain level of extra scrutiny that is afforded

to women in the public gaze, I'm sure you would agree.

Well, you were, um, followed around for six months

by a man dressed as a pork chop.

Is that the particular kind of scrutiny that,

that you're saying is reserved for women?

No, that was just reserved for me.

If we, um, just could turn to tab 16.

We have some articles, there's quite a few, actually.

On top of the second page here there is an exploded view of your face.

Yes, well they have, um...

They have magnified a picture of my top lip,

er, in the hope of finding a moustache, which I do not have,

I never have had a moustache, so...

If we, er, yes, again, if we turn to the fourth page of this tab.

"Frumpy, grumpy and dangerous to know."

"How Nicola Murray went from gold to lead in six months."

I mean, this is typical of, er, of many of the pieces

printed about you at the time, about a year ago, wasn't it?

Yes, it was.

Over 35 major articles.

Yes. Yeah.

I mean, I suppose the point I'd make is that we're sitting here

in our ivory, um, inquiry.

and out there, in the real world, there is actual news happening.

You know, we've got the chief whip's office, you know,